Counting the days...

i love you, i love you more than you will ever know, however for the well being of yourself and our dear one I will sacrifice this love. I'm counting the days, yet I don't know what to expect, will things get better or will things get worse. I pray for a miracle, because up to this point that is the only thing that will alleviate us all, a miracle. We are far past a chance, opportunity has been murdered and hope is fairly hanging to its last breath.

I wish I had an answer to the question I have never truly been asked. I have not been told exactly why! why, damn it why! It has been a very lonesome and frustrating 7 months, but the light must be... the light for the sake of all HAS TO BE at the end of the tunnel.

I’ve prayed and will continue to pray, the truth will set you and I free.

Domingo, Mayo 23, 1982 – 1:35pm

Domingo, Mayo 23, 1982 – 1:35pm

Buenos dias! One more year, one more chance, one more opportunity. I was shaken but NOT BROKEN, my name is Daniel Arturo Perez Lacera, affectionately known to my loved ones as the one & only – Danielito. In a year’s time, I have gained with un denying blessing from our Lord; a filming production company that is blooming to soon be one that is not to be reckon with, full legality in this country, a promotion in my job that led to a better financial stability, a house to call my own, and the blessings of all blessings – my daughter is on her way – I am soon to step into the greatest and most important role in my life – fatherhood!

All this only in one year’s time! Overwhelming don’t you think? Accomplishments that some 24 year olds do not even dream about, yet I have no clue what another year might bring this time around. I welcome every moment, I do not have the answers to every riddle, however I have the will to find them and the courage to understand that some I will not. I live for someone now, I live for my daughter, I will keep myself whole, let her know that the word hatred never had a home in my mouth, that negativity never stayed in my heart, that faith and hope always led my soul. I am far from perfect, but yet I will always stand for peace and love, I will turn the other cheek, as much as it hurts now, I will stand for what I believe in.

I beg you angel, do not pass judgment, convict me, set a sentence for there is no joy or peace of mind in despising anyone or hating another human being. There has been a trial in my name without my presence; I do take responsibilities for MY actions, not the one of others and the ones you want to believe that I committed. I pray for us every day, for we are essential in the life of our dear one. How can we be good at anything, if we can't be good with each other?

At last I say this… Happy Birthday to me, Happy New beginnings, the TRUTH will always prevail, sooner or later my story will be told, and the adversary will know that there is no room for him in my life.

God Bless you all,

The business of living

You forbid me access to your presence; you forbid me access to your court. I grieve and I should not choose to show my discontent. So I fix my eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen… For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. Whom you hold within you, is the key to my joy and peace. The business of living had brought me a much needed realization… Faith will keep me whole and the love of a better tomorrow strong.