What the f*ck is going on?

What’s going on!

You used to fill my heart with joy and confidence, now you have no interest in me anymore. No love, consideration, friendship or hope. This is such a horrible living nightmare, every breath I take hurts. I can try to fool myself in thinking everything is ok, but at every moment of silence, my soul aches; a prayer is follow by a tear, each tear drowns me more and more in a pit of desperation. I have been given no real options, my hands are tight.