Enough is Enough!

Enough is Enough… Time after time I have allowed you to smack my cheek back and forth. To treat me as a second class citizen as if I was a scum or a good for nothing. This can not continue, I’m yet to get a clear answer of why all this hatred, why the immense feeling of resentment. As you very well put it in the past, “I also believe that when you run out of cheeks for people to slap… slap dem suckas back!!! Vengeance is always the LORD’s but self defense is mine…” However I will slap no one back, like it or not, I will not respond the way you expect me to! My character is being tested in ways I have never imagined and I will not return hatred with hatred.

Lay your head in the pillow of mi dolor, while you are speaking to him all night, while you are making plans for the next day, while you are sending him messages via your cell phone. Blame me for everything, you know very well that you fail me, that what you forgot what you promised. You lied to me; no one loved you like I did. I am filled with reasons to hate you and resent you, however I want you to be happy, to be filled with happiness. May a rain come down today and wash away all the memories you have of me. Whenever he asks you or you speak of me, tell him and the world that I was the worst, that I betray you, that I am solely to blame. Cover all your wrongful actions with my pain and may you never find regret and the sun shine bright in your future.

I know is over, life must go on. Let’s be glad at least that a beautiful child is going to be born, from the shadows Lyric will rise to sing a new song. You can keep your love yous for him; our child will lay her head on my pillow and tell me with her eyes those words in the most pure sense of the word… I love you.

She will love me big and bold.